Cheap Frills

Justin has be given the title of my new and coolest-of-the-moment friend. He has this theory that neither I nor Stan, an older gentlemen who comes in to the mini-mart as well, are not real. This entire world is his imagination and he’s really locked in some institute banging his head against a wall. It made me laugh and I told him how when I was little I was deadly afraid that I was in fact not real and was someone’s dream. Maybe I am. God he is nuts! Crazier then me but still has a sense of I don’t know the word. I really want to go to a bar with him and Stan, it just seems like the right way to spend an evening. Tonight he said how Stan and myself make him saner. And at first I didn’t get it but then I realized it makes sense and it does the same for me. I mean when you’re in the company of your own kind you’re at ease. One step closer to therapy maybe? Haha, I’m to tired to keep talking about it.

Wow I haven’t blogged in over a month! Nothing to big happened recently. Well I don’t sleep over Robbie’s house anymore though I only did that three times. I can’t say I didn’t like it or that I don’t miss is and not just because it was someone but because it was him. But our differences were just to different. Like he wanted to fool around and I cried. Talk about a dissipater! Didn’t my mom worn me about that? Blah let’s not think about it! Let’s think about how I started work today. I’m now a cashier at Ocean State Job Lot. The people there are amusing, I get 20% off and it’s a nice part time job. If I want full time they can give it to me but I want to start school next semester so I can’t handle full time. It’s time to get this ball called life rolling. Ugh I’m already thinking about how to spend my paycheck! I think the first paycheck will be going to The Small Object.
Official Mail Correspondence Stamp Set for $18
Recipe Writing Stamp Set for $24
Make-A-List To Do Stamp Set for $12
Make-A-List Plan Stamp for $12
Fill-In-Blank Cookbook Log for $14
Fill-In-Blank Gift Notes for $12
The String Keeper Can for $16

They have other cute things like an adorable wedding cake topper. Embossed Reply Sticker with the cutes poem:
Apples are good
peaches are better.
If you like me at all
you will respond to this letter
Then there if my FAVORITE item they have the utmost adorable hangers! And as much as I love The Small Object I don’t know if I should pay $10 a hanger or try to make my own.

Another place I’m really loving is Chronicle Books. My amazon wish list is huge because of them. Their books are just so well me. I haven’t even finished looking through all the cookbooks but I did go through the crafts. The stationary is pretty cute too. I got The Perfect Note after seeing it there. Ugh and after searching for the link to it I’ve discovered a bunch of new stuff I want. I better get offline and do some reading before I get carried away.

I just had a strange moment. I woke up checked my email, asked Dylan and Owen if they’re ready for breakfast, finished loading and started the dishwasher, made the boys eggs and toast and now I’m shopping for books while they eat. I’m not sure why but it seemed like a very grown up things to do. Well it seemed like a mommy thing to do. I kind of love playing Mommy, I have since I was little and took care of my siblings. Yes it was something I shouldn’t have gone through but it made me the kind nurturing girl I am. Speaking of I just picked up The Creative Family: How to Encourage Imagination and Nurture Family Connections and Making Stuff for Kids so I can actually be a fun “sister”. Well I will be Owen and Justine’s sister if my mom and Jeff get married. Which they just might! Oh and I’m the Made of Honor. Which basically means I get to plan the biggest party EVER! Besides if my mom does get married it gives me hope that maybe some day I will. Ew now I’m getting all sentimental better get going before it makes me sappy.

PS- I wrote about an order with Cath Kidston’s Mix & Match Stationary in it. Well when I ordered it they were all out of it but guess what? They just restocked! So of course I picked some up and hopefully will get it this time.

“Why do you like me?”
“Because I feel like I don’t have to impress you I can just be myself. Why do you like me?”
“Because you make me feel ok”

Oh god thinking back to last night I almost want to gag and it’s not from being sick. The amount of cuteness it’s just… just… ugh awful and I loved it. But before I get into I have to start at the beginning of the night. I’m standing on Robbie’s door step and right as he answers the door my mom and Uni yell “Make him come out we want to see him” So I do and this is what I get “Wow he’s hairy” I couldn’t help but burst out laughing. Then the drinking began fallowed by 20 billion questions and hand holding. (Wait isn’t that how I got in all that trouble with Paul?) I’m not sure if it was the alcohol or just the fact I trust Robbie but every question he asked I answered honestly. Thank god for the alcohol though cause I know damn well that bastard was trying to make me cry. He’s so weird. He answered my questions as well and we got to know each other better. I have to say before I came back to the area I liked Robbie but it was a superficial kind of like. He was cute and funny and therefor I liked him. Knowing him now and finding out his life is pretty crazy on it’s own makes me like him more. That and hearing things like “I like damaged girls because I want to fix them” “I don’t think you could fix me” “I bet I could” Afterward I got really sick off the hard lemonade (like I always do) and ended up throwing up. It was pretty bad but at least I got a hug. Then I ended up sleeping in his bed, with him, and we cuddled. It was awesome you know minus being ill. It was nice to be that vulnerable and open to someone and actually be safe. He didn’t push or pressure anything like Paul. Except what Paul did still has me feeling uneasy and a little on guard and I feel really bad about it and he feels awkward. It’s not that I don’t want to kiss Robbie, ok I kind really want to, but every time he kissed me I just froze up. I can’t say I know but I’m pretty sure he’s nothing like Paul but who can say anything about the future? Oh well I guess I’ll just wait and see.

First I added a ton of new links! And yes I realize three of them are wedding oriented but really don’t freak out. Blah I mean this is supposed to be a dating blog… except well I don’t do much of that here in middletown. Note to self: flirt like hell in Groton. But hey! I added Fifi Lapin’s blog to and that thing is awesome.

Anyway on to something relevant to my life.

Friday night I was talking to Robbie and he was pretty much like (in Erica language) “No offense but I hate the way you dress.” Wow, really? He then proceeded to tell me that everyone else probably does too but is to scared to tell me because they didn’t want to hurt my feelings “Whereas I’m a coldhearted asshole that just wants to help” For the record his “help” is wanting to dress me like a cookie cutter poptart. (I was going to put an image in here just to mock it but the only person I could think of was Miley Cyrus… and well we should all know what happens when you google her name.) And secondly all my other friends are like indie kids who dress the same way as me. But I’m not really dwelling on that part I mean really it’s just clothes. What really bothers/upset me was this sudden lash out. I mean he was being like a grade A dick about it. So you know what I’m not going to call him when I go to Groton this week. Besides he told me to do it while he was drunk and I don’t take anything a drunk boy says seriously. Blah I’m pissed to the point I don’t even care if he sees this.

On a lighter note did I mention I bought a pair of faux suede knee hight boots? Oh they’re so cute! I got them on Zapoo along with a pair of moccasins. I know! I have to stop making random purchases at 3:00am. But back to the boots! I can’t wait till the come in. I’m totally wearing them with some black thigh highs and this dress:

It totally matches my new ipod whcih should be delivered Friday.

You ever notice how the free credit report dot com “rap” video sounds a lot like She Wants Revegne?

Who’s record label is a cunt and disabled the video’s embedding code. Oh well it gets the point across.

I ordered a Nikon Coolpix S210 last night. Well actually I ordered a kit I think it came with like a memory card (4GB I think) and some other things. I didn’t read any of the reviews before buying it. Like most of of my 3:00am purchases. I did show it to Rich and he approved of it, It’s just a point and shoot though so really what is there to complain about? It’s not like it’s a D60! I kind of want one of those but I don’t know if I take enough pictures to own one. Oh well. I’ve got more important things to think about like wether to get a regular macbook, an air or a pro.

So this the first time in at least ten years I actually get to celebrate my sister Amber’s birthday in one way or another. Well last year I think I sent her a ecard on like myspace but really I didn’t know her that well and so it doesn’t count! So today I bought her The Softies Kit (I wont lie I got one for myself too! How could I not? It’s so cute!), Softies and a pair of earrings with her birthstone in them.

I’m not sure if she’ll like the softies stuff, my mom wasn’t either but if she doesn’t then she’s no sister of mine! Although I’m almost certain she’ll like the earrings because my mom said she was saying she wanted things with her birthstone in it. Hopefully I’ll get a picture of her wearing them to post.

Also I picked up a lovely Cath Kidston journal, can you tell I love her stuff yet? And Beginner’s French (Teach Yourself Languages) which has the cutest cover. Don’t believe me? See for yourself:

“Do it! Do it! I wont buy you things anymore if you don’t do it. I’ll burn you MTV Zibra shirt if you don’t”

That is exactly what I told my sister when she mentioned joining the ultimate frisbee club. Oh and Chris is being whiney because I wont date him. But really I gave him how many chances? Exactly! Anyway I had to break the news to Robbie that I didn’t get those adorable black with white polka dots tight highs but the white with red heart ones. Then this happened:

Him: That’s very you.
Him: You should let me dress you.
Me: excuse me?
Him: You should let me dress you!
Him: I’d pick out the coolest clothes.

Do I look like Barbie? Really? I don’t know how to feel about this. Is he saying to have fun or does he think there’s something wrong with my personal style? I’m going to ask him about this. But in the mean time speaking of my personal style here’s some stuff I picked up on Forever 21’s clearance.

ALSO! I picked these shoes up on Delias site for $10! I can’t believe they had my size!

And the I saw it on fredflare but got it cheaper on Amazon

Mmm pretty new stationary to write love letters in!

I just have had a lot of stuff going on that I just didn’t feel like blogging about. But I swear I’m going to try more now. Anyway I’ve got some exciting news! I’m moving back to the shore! I’ll get to see my mom and sister as well as all my friends. And more importantly a better chance of dating someone! There’s so many more chances to be sociable there and actually go out. But first I need to find a job eeeew. Hopefully I can find an awesomely cool one. Here’s to dreaming! Also my birthday passed, have I talked about this? I got two new penguin things! A virtual penguin game my Aunt from Hawaii sent me and a small baby penguin from a zoo in California that Dan sent me. Other then that nothing big other then some shopping happened. I spent almost $400 today! It was awesome got some new panties at Victoria’s Secret and warm tight highs at Sock Dreams. I got a few things at Delias but mostly bought my sister some early birthday things. Well I really can’t think of anything else right now. I’ll try writing more often, really!

I’ve just been really lazy and spending my time in chats. I promise I’ll blog soon, hopefully. Anyway here’s something to entertain you till then.

Oh and thanks to maybe some new Financial Domination I might actually be able to afford this coat:

The collar and cape are detachable and it’s just lovely. I’m going to have to have it custom made because the size available is to small but that’s actually nice because then it’ll fit me.