Jun 30 2008
She woke up with hope
Today I woke up with Nine Days’ Story of a Girl stuck in my head. I don’t know why or how seeing as I haven’t heard that song in months but that’s just the way it is. While I was sleeping I dreamt about the baby bluejay Paul found sprouting his tail feathers and flying away. A much sadder though now because when I woke up I’d been informed the baby had died. The death leaves me even more confused because I was contemplating ending our relationship yesterday. The drinking we did Saturday night caused a lot of trouble, more so for me then him. With my constant stumbling from the bedroom to the bathroom I heard a lot of his rambling. At one point a said statement sent me into such a drunken depression I swallowed a good palm full of allergy pills to knock me out. I slept most of Sunday, missed the Euro cup, and dealt with a lot of awkward moments. Although things seem alright for the moment and we can say we’ve been together for two weeks. I mean like literally together too. We went out two Sunday’s ago and then the next day he asked me over for the night. Some how I just ended up here by one excuse or another. It’s strange for me to start a relationship this way but it hasn’t done much harm to us. But I can’t lie and say I’m not happy to be going home today. I really need to get my things organized and straightened out. Hopefully my life will be getting better.
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*hugs* Wow. A few things are popping into my head after reading this. Sorry about the bird, and about what happened Saturday (and the whole pill thing scared me). Guess you should do what feels right. Makes me wish I was actually over there, well actually a few things make me wish that, but hope you know what I mean.
*hugs* I am so sorry, about the bird, and what happened on Saturday (it scared me when I read about the pills.) Guess relationships have there doubts from time to time, just do what feels right and be honest (at least to yourself). And I hope things do turn out better, and sadly thats all I can do, other then lend an ear and the occausional internet hug.
Maybe you should break up with him if you are going to get drunk and take a bunch of alergie pills. You either need to talk to him, or just end it.